When I was 5 years old,I hoped for the beautiful life in the future.I hoped that I would never grow up because I didn't want to live in this complex life.I wanted to live with my parent,with the people I love in the beautiful life without worry n wound.But I was wrong!Everybody has to grow up!The world where everything is money made us like that.To creat the chaos~ only some brains and a bit of money is needed.Parent can bring us up 10 years,30 years but they can never take care of us for all time.The peaceful life juzt is 5-year-old child's illusion so I soon erased it in my head.

When I was older,I would dream of being a perfect person.I used to think the older I am,the better I become.So I lived in the rule of behavior I considered the truth which could make me perfect.And I didn't know when did I live uncomfortably like this...Fortunately,I found that I wasn't me but the world didn't change.It's too tired to try coz becoming an adult doesn't mean becoming a better person.It was too difficult to live in this world~ living well is unable.In this world, world like a farce.The people who can't laugh are so sick of it.A perfect person juzt is illusion so I give up it.

I am falling in love.I have ever loved so I don't know how to talk about it.But I know for certain that this feeling iz more than the word "friend","like" or "adore" ~ I have love a person for over 1 year but my sentiment have never been inconstant.I am falling in love deeper n deeper.I love a city I have never come coz it's the city where he was born.I love a family I have never lived coz it's his family.N I love him whom I have never met.When I started loving him,I wished I had met him even if he wouldn't love me.Then if I come a little closer he would be able to feel me.I would have lived in my illusion if hadn't read his diary.That he iz falling in love with someone.That may be true or juzt kidding but I found that he iz not mine.His world is so diffent from my world.It's just too hard to handle,too far to meet.N I promised him,I juzt love him this time.Then soon or leater,my illusion will die away.

I used to think that it's not too difficult to do everything well.I like drawing,dancing n wanting to study well.Voracious me didn't know my ability n my limitation coz I will really do well everything when I concentrade only one.Drawing iz my passion n I can't drop out so I have to let dancing go.My ss said that:"Please let U dance coz it's time U could do wat U want".I like dancing but it's not the way I live n the life iz too fast to live.Now~ when I see someone or groups dance,I will feel a little hurt,a little sad n a little disappointed but I will be a custom to living without st I like.

Now~ I want to be an architect.My mother objects so much to my dream.She juzt want me to study hard n work in a good company like my ss.I used to give this dream up.Until I drew again,I found that how much I love drawing.Drawing became a part of my life.So I don't have the consideration for the weak.Even if I burn up all my flames, I can't give up.Everything that I had wanted, I take it all.Not for my family but for me~.Even if the world turns it back on me, I close my eyes and cover my ears.It may be my illusion again~ but this time,I will catch my illusion.I promise!

Anyway~

Talk less,do so much more!
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want to go Singapore (;___